A Different Drummer
Heard today from Beatrice, my Trainer/Therapist/Masseuse:
“Are you such a racer! Always going, moving, so many things at once, always in motion!”
(in response to my attemps to ‘fix’ what ails me)
I’ve had heal pain in my ankle/Achilles since July 10th of this year. It’s been just over 8 weeks. I recently went to see Joyce Thom (more on Joyce here), and even she spoke about how in Eastern Medicine, the right side of your body is usually linked to the doing, being in motion. And she thought it was intriguing that most of my pain was there (my right lower back, My right Quad, my right Calf, my right knee, my right ankle).
Beatrice, Joyce, and my father’s wife kandy, are all saying the same things.
-Just Be: Take the time to learn how to ‘just be’ (not to be happy only when in motion, doing, accomplishing).
-Relax: Everything really will be okay.
-Breathe: Breathe with a purpose, to calm yourself, constantly, deep breaths, mindful, from the belly.
-Trust Yourself: This one is a challenge for me. Since my lower back injury, I’ve seen my body as a hidden weapon that only needs to be activated to cause incredible, instant pain. I’m working on accepting my body as part of me, not the enemy.
-Appreciate Yourself: Give yourself credit for each and every accomplishment, focus on the positive, literally pat yourself on your back when you do something good for yourself. Feel the good on the other side of the tough choices you make, focus on it, wait for the feeling before you move into the resistance, wait for the resistance to fade and the good feeling to saturate you.
My intellectual self is still trying to think and do what it can to ‘fix’ this. I’m in the process of convincing myself to take time, make space, flow…
…It’s a very interesting and challenging time to be me